But Moses said to God, "Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?"
And God said, "I will be with you. And this will be the sign to you that it is I who have sent you: When you have brought the people out of Egypt, you will worship God on this mountain.
Exodus 3:11-12
We studied this text (in larger context - verses 1-18) at New Fire last weekend. As we worked with it through lectio divina the words "Who am I" stuck with me. Who AM I? Who am I that God would call me? What is it that God would have me do? The rest of my group wrestled with alone, fear, mountain, flock, sacrifice, sent. Our voices resonated with each other as we explained our focus points in the scripture and delved into the text together.
This evening I was a contributor in a conference call during which we reflected on our National Council of Churches General Assembly experiences. For a moment I had to step back. Look at where I am! Look where God has called me! How the heck did I get here? Two years ago I never would have guessed I would be struggling with my processing and reflecting because I just attended the NCC GA?! Two years ago Elgin, IL was a place so foreign to me full of church leaders I had never met. Now those empty faces I didn't know are members of my family. Sometimes, when I step back, I feel like I'm trapped here in this spot - working for the Church. But only for a second. Once I gather myself and breathe in the goodness that is the Church of the Brethren I am aware of the larger picture - those things about which I am passionate, about which I care and through which I am willing to struggle.
There were some great quotes during tonight's meeting. Had I written them down I would share them here. I hung up with a sense of hope for the future and knowing that the future of THE Church and OUR church is something of which I will be a part...and that is okay. Through these times of struggle and tribulation (really not that dramatic, but they are great words :)) even when we begin to see the light and celebrate we must still remember, “we are in a post wilderness moment, but not in the promised land.” - Rev. Otis Moss III
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